You gotta spend some time love

Our shadowsHow I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me

It's like a book elegantly bound, but in a language that you can't read - just yet

You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me

And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart

I am listening to the new Death Cab for Cutie Album. David pointed about the lyrics to this single a few weeks ago. I really like the line that I underlined.

I also really do think that love requires that you spend some time. I think David wishes it would have taken a little bit less time with me, but I was really scared. In the end our relationship has been all about spending time on things together, working through things together, and spending time having fun together. I don't know if I believe in instant love. I think there is instant connection, but that love and a working relationship are never this easy or instant thing. I feel like the value of a relationship has a lot to do with the time put into it.

And he does possess my heart.

Word of the Day:Sweat

Actually, more like word of the weekend. I think that the temperature in the area hovered around 90 this weekend.

The hottest I felt this weekend was this morning at we sat on the down in the meeting room with about 30 other people with no air conditioning. Being on the third story, with so many people, and no moving air was a little bit brutal. I watched David wipe sweat from his brow for the duration of the meeting. After the meeting he said he tried to cool his core temperature through meditation, and we figured out we should actually raise our core temperatures, so that the 90 degree around us felt cooler.

Yesterday I took a bath for about 1.5 hours to cool down.

The beach is packed and the summer seems to be here. It was exactly pleasant this weekend, but I am definitely ready for summer to be here.

Bridezillas no more

I just this article.

It made me think that it shouldn't take an economy crunch for people to be more frugal and less ridiculous when it comes to budgeting wedding expenses. I for one have always had a real issue with wedding costs and how much money people put into one day of their lives just to have what- good photos? I mean, I know that some girls dream of that fairytale wedding where everything is just perfect, and maybe I have just never dreamed of that. I don't see it being a sacrifice to spend 700 on a dress rather than 3,500. I think that there are much more creative ways to spend money, like having an amazing honeymoon or putting a down payment on a house- something that really will be central to your actual marriage.

I would go on, but I need to get going. All I have to say is that I want a Quaker wedding with minimum costs incurred. Maybe a few hundred to rent a location and a few for food, but mainly I will ask my guests to bring goodies to share with everyone else (potluck) style and maybe even ask them to bring fresh flowers from their gardens for decorations or my bouquet. One of the most quaint and charming weddings I have ever been to was like this, and I was so impressed with the simplicity and lack of frill- I'd love something like that.

Or to spend a bit more to have a destination wedding where maybe not that many people attend, but we get to visit a cool location and get married at the same time.

Sorry for going on. In general wedding talk makes me want to gag. It's just so much money and detailing and fretting and extravagance that really doesn't sit well with me at all. So many an economy crunch causing people to cut back is a great reality check for some people, maybe it will bring a level of practical economic thought into wedding planning that wasn't there before.

Struggling with Peace

Sometimes I think I am the kind of person who does feel at rest when things in life are peaceful. I know that sounds really weird, but I have a hard time with quiet times in life when things seem to be going well, so much that I guess I focus on silly things to be annoyed or stressed out about, even when they are not really worth it.

Recently I have focused a lot on my best friends wedding, just because working out the details have seemed stressful.

I also kind of picked a fight with David the other night and told him that I annoyed him all the time and asked him he was bored with me, etc.

And although I have to say that probably the second example was more hormonal than anything else, I feel really silly for the things that I have decided to stress out about. Because in some cases stress is a choice, and for me lately it has been a choice. Another thing that I tend to do is to stress over other peoples stuff and life situations if I don't have anything in my life to worry about.

The silly think is that my rational mind completely know that it needs to stop this choice to be stressed, but it's a habit I tend to slip into a lot.

It's funny because in college I was always preoccupied with assignments, but I never felt stressed in the same way that I feel stressed about other stuff in life. I felt like the projects I needed to complete were focused and could be accomplished and therefore they didn't take over my life. I think it's funny that I let stupid shit have to much time on the agenda of my mind.

So I am changing everything from this moment forward. Except, not really, because if it was that easy I would snap my hands at all the things I realize about and they'd be gone.

But choosing less stress is certainly something to strive for, and being content with how great my life is right now is something I definitely need to focus on quite a bit.

I am really happy, and I don't always let myself think on that enough.

If my job was to lay on the beach all day...

Then I would probably look this content. More pictures of cuteness here.
Have you ever been to this spot in La Jolla? Why did is take me 6 years of living here to find this gem?

Weekend Fun

This is the first time I had been to La Jolla to see the seals. I haven't uploaded all the pictures yet, but there are some adorable ones. I honestly kind of think they look cuter in the pictures than in real life, but I mean I think I look way cuter in real life than in pictures, so it just goes to show it's all interpretation. ;)

I posted pics of my adventure with my mom in Julian. There are some funny ones in the kitchen and cutes ones of mama at the animal park feeding the Lorakeets.
by catbonny

My Mom and I

Highlights of the weekend included:

• Eating a posh breakfast in Ocean Beach.
• Seeing the dozens of harbor seals at La Jolla. ( I have amazing photos and good video)
• Watching 7 baby lion cabs tumble around at the Wild Animal Park.
• Making about 60 or so pieces of Naan on the huge industrial griddle at Camp Stevens and 'taste testing' it while hot of the grill.
• Making home made cheese. (Lots of it)
• Doing some birdwatching with my mom/chasing a wild turkey.
• Going to a too pricey place for dinner,having my mom pretend she was going to the restroom, and running out the hotel door after her laughing because it was above our price range.
• Laughing with mom.

We had a wonderful time. I am so blessed to have such an amazing mother who shines so much love into my life. I couldn't me more thankful for the weekend, especially because I know she had a blast.