Afterlife

Love of mine some day you will die But I'll be close behind I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of a spark

If heaven and hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black

And I held my tongue as she told me Son fear is the heart of love So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see From Bangcok to Calgary

And the soles of your shoes are all worn down The time for sleep is now

It's nothing to cry about Cause we'll hold each other soon In the blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide

That they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks

Then I'll follow you into the dark

Then I'll follow you into the dark

Weekend Loves/Likes/Not Like so Much

Loves

• David making me such a yummy breakfast this morning
• D telling me how much I mean to him and how much he truly appreciates all my help in house hunting yesterday. (Feeling that I have been on less of an emotional roller coaster about the whole thing, and feeling very secure about the future.)
• Having a non-spastic back, which is such a change from a week ago today.
• The Sicilian Thing pizza place that the Remy family recommended. D had thick. I had thin. It was scrumptious.
• Having the kitty wake me up on Saturday morning (and then going back to bed for a while.)
• Talking much with my surrogate sister, and thinking about getting her and Arnie together when she is here.

Likes

• The Mushroom Focaccia pocket for breakfast from the F-Market.
• Book Club meeting outside on my porch tonight. We talked about Three Cups of Tea, which is a really touching story about a man who starts a foundation to build schools in Pakistan and Afghanistan.
• The pretty sunset on the ride home.
• Playing a word game on the table at Macaroni Grill last night.
• Fresh watermelon from the F-Market, and blueberries, and blackberries. (YUMMM!)
• Staying in an air-conditioned house and a weekend when AC was much needed.
• Going to a party and seeing old friend on Friday night. Realizing how great being real with people is, and how certain relationships are such blessings.
• Feeling like we found a good home for D in San Diego.
• A few new dresses that are good for hot weather. (None over $15)

Not Like So Much

• D's parents dog who is really rambunctious and feeling bad for her being in the hot yard all day.
• My new shoes rubbing a bad blister on the back of foot, and realizing after a month of wanting them I need to return them.
• The lady not calling us when she rented the room D wanted, causing us to wait in San Diego for two additional hours.
• The temperature ranging from 109 in San Diego yesterday to 95 here today.
• Stubbing my two twice yesterday.

All in all this was a great weekend. I will be in L.A for the next two nights at two concerts. I am pretty excited about both. I am so thankful that life has been a blessing lately, and actually feeling great about house sitting for the next week and a half or so, because both places have AC and the heat was definitely getting to my head a little bit.

Getting Big

Yesterday David and I spent the WHOLE day house hunting in San Diego (please let me mention the fact that it was 109 degrees where we were. I suggested that on the way home we stop at the Wild Animal Park because they start there night zoo thing, but he said he didn't think it would be a good call because we had a long day and were tired. I agreed with him, because Escondido isn't exactly on the way home (and I am going with my sister in a few weeks). I checked the weather and it said that is was still in the nineties there are 7pm last night- we would have been so tired and miserable.

But look at how big these baby lions are getting. This was a month ago when we were in Julian for Mother's Day. They are probably going to look like almost full grown lions by the time I get to take Arnie. I hope that it's not 106 when we go there next month.

Perhaps this is why I love Elton John (or the Muppets)?

For some reason I cannot get a separate video just for Benny and Jets. I loved the Muppet Show when I was growing up, and I kind of think that's why I still love Elton John or why I started to love him in the first place. I just remember loving the Benny and Jets thing when I was little.

Oh, I found it!

Lucky Me. Thankful Me.

(I love this picture.)

So I hurt my back a while ago and it flared up this past weekend and was in a lot of pain. I finally went to the Doc on Monday for some medicine, but yesterday sitting in my work chair killed me. Even after taking muscle relaxers I was in pain.

I am also extremely stubborn and want to do everything for myself, so on the phone at lunch I cried and insisted I would make dinner, and David said he could.

So last night when I got home D had to bags of groceries, and he made me a double batch of bean and cheese burritos and explained that he was making a lot so I wouldn't have to make lunch for the rest of the week or dinner even. He worked for about 1.5 hours while I feel asleep in my bed and laid on ice. It was a lovely meal. I insisted on cleaning up, but he said no, and then he spent time cleaning my kitchen. I took a pain pill and shortly feel asleep.

I am so thankful to have someone who loves me enough to take care of me when I need to be cared for. I feel so loved and so thankful that I have David. I am not trying to be sappy or anything, but being taken care of sure is awesome.

And, I think the back feels a bit better today because I got a lot of rest and didn't strain it last night.

Weekend High Points

• Sweet Basil Cafe for lunch with Jare. Feeling so fortunate that we have had several occasions that we have been able to just sit down and talk for a few hours lately. This has been such a blessing for me in the midst of the crazy life. I missed long hours of talking and it's good to have had so many lately.
• Seeing The Visitor with David because it was a really good movie and made a political commentary while being very subtle and undramatic. It was a great movie, and I would recommend going to see it while it's still in theaters.
• The Super Heroes party, which was only complete with Pina Coladas (some virgin), Margaritas (too sour), and Issac's awesome White Russians with Fat Free half and half. I think I drank quite a few drinks, but never felt anywhere near tipsy. It was definitely a night of highly sugared drinks. Yum.
• Corn-hominy chowder. I was proud of that creation.
• Seeing friends I haven't seen for a while, and having a living room FULL of people makes my house feel like my home.
• Breakfast at Alta. My choice was breakfast at alta or a shower and I picked breakfast which meant that I went to meeting with a baseball cap and contact lenses, and no one recognized me at all.
• David rubbing my back tenderly because yesterday (and today in fact) it was in spasm and was really really hurting.
• The kids in the First Day school were fun yesterday. Our lesson wasn't the best, but we talked about Darth Vader and Homer Simpson and how they were happy that they had fathers were better fathers than those two characters. The kids seems to appreciate their fathers doing the dishes more than anything else that came to mind. How cute, and funny, and fun.

Sex in an MRI tube, anyone?

I finished reading this book about a week ago and thoroughly both enjoyed it and learned quite a bit from it. The book is about historical and and current scientific research that had been done about sex. It dates back to earlier than Kinsey's research and includes accounts of Sex in a MRI tube, and a personal account that the author gives about being a research subject and having sex with her husband while a doctor had a conversation with her husband and performing an ultrasound on the two of them to observe (internally) what happened when they had sex.

The chapter dealing with female orgasm talks about Princess Maria Bonaparte and her research and finding about the distance of the clitoris from the vaginal opening is highly connected to the likelihood that a woman will have an orgasm during normal 'missionary position' sex. (The more distance between the two, the less likely it is for orgasm to be achieved.) Princess Bonaparte has her clitoris surgically moved TWICE in order to cure her problem of 'frigidity' but both times it was unsuccessful.

There's a lot of good information in this book. For example, it talks about why regularly masturbating can help woman who have sexual dysfunction more than Viagra. It has lots of information about male sexual dysfunction and some really cringe-worthy discussions of certain implants and other methods that can be used to helped male sexual problems. The last chapter talks about how homosexual couples who were studied (maybe 20 years ago) were observed as being much more in-tune with their partners sexual needs, while heterosexual couples have a much harder time doing this. She ended by saying that in the 20 years that have elapsed between that study and today a lot of research on sex has really helped couples to better understand both their own bodies and their partners.

I personally like learning about sex because learning about it as a biological and scientific process helps me to disassociate negative and guilty feelings about it. The more I learn, the more I can talk about, and the more I talk about sex, the more comfortable and confident I become around the topic. This book also made me laugh out loud almost every time I picked it up, so there's a another upside to reading it.

If you want to borrow my copy, just let me know.